Trying to Find Me!!

Well I am really struggling at the min!! Feel like I am taking one step forward in my new job and two steps back!! Soon as I get a tick in one box I seem to have missed something else and it’s like bang a right bloody kick in the teeth!!! Did I think I was better than I was or am I just finding my feet in a new industry?? The problem is when you earn a high salary finding your feet isn’t an option!! I need to get my focus back, compared to what I did this isn’t that hard. I just need to be closer to it.  Possibly I am focusing on too much and maybe I need to get back to getting the basics right and understanding the whole process at grass roots level!! Plus get a bloody acccountant in to do the numbers to free up my time!! Today is a day I would love to drink!! Previously I would have!! But I am going to resist and have a becks blue!!!  For anyone wanting to pack in the drink, read the sober diaries! It’s inspiring, informative and just a bloody good read xxx it...

I’ve not written too much on here lately, but my journal is still heavily packed most days, I just need to start putting more on here, New Years res right there!!! But this morning had a pretty awesome journal entry which I need to get on here, maybe just one person will read it and have a little think to themselves!! Well up before 6am on Christmas Eve, lay in bed with the usual dilemma of do I get up, stay in bed, relax while you can etc, or do I get up and use the hour to read/ journal. So I got up! Then I started to think about time, deep I know! But just started to consider the significance of an hour! I’ve calculated that if I live to be 80 (fingers crossed!!!), deduct an average of 7hrs per night for sleep, I have around 254 thousand hours left to do all I want to do! It actually doesn’t sound a lot does it???? Then when you think I will use 6 thousand of them this year you see it!!! Like I said bit deep for Christmas Eve!! But when you break time down like that it ...

So had a wonderful weekend in Wales to finish off my 2 weeks of relaxation!! A very cold walk up Snowdon on Saturday, is one way to make you feel totally alive!!! Today I started my new journey as a self-employed Professional. I have learnt so much over the past 2 weeks about learning to manage so many elements of my life to create a more peaceful and meaningful purpose to every day. Couple of the things I have changed!!! Silent Phone time!! I no longer put any volume on my phone until at least 7.30am Previously straight away onto loud at 6am, quick insta fix before my first emails started to come through around 6.30a, Walking the dog!! Something I do every morning, previously was my time to make my first phone calls and check my figure. I'm now resisting that urge, and using this time to take in the day and the surroundings. Looking at the colours around me, taking in a deep breath and planning to have a great day! TV Off! Resisiting the urge to always have that ...

Guys I am currently reading the Monk who sold his Ferrari!!!! What an amazing book!!! About 60% of the way through now and lots of lessons in there that we can build into every day life if we just take the time to think about what we are doing and make time to reflect on our behaviours and actions. Today I could have slept in, not set the alarm and woke up naturally, but through thinking about the 10 rituals in the book for a better life, I set the alarm for 6, spent 10 minutes in bed thinking about the day ahead and then cracked on!!! Today is going to be a good day!! I am a strong confident woman who will smash the day (mantra!!!!) Have a fabulous day xxxx

So today I make the brave step to leave my job after 20 plus years!!! I joined the company as an Office junior at 17 years of age and through hard work and self-development I managed to work my way up to a very senior position within the business. I leave with nothing but good memories and gratitude for a business and colleagues that have taught me so much. This feels like absolutely the right time and the right step for me to take now and I am determined that through positive visualisation of what my future looks like I will be able to achieve all I hope for. Wish me luck, not for the future but for my leaving drinks later today!!!! Have a fabulous day and be your amazing self xxx